It wasn’t exactly the best Christmas for me this week. My oldest kid tested positive for covid on Christmas eve, and my wife tested positive on Christmas morning.
The last time my wife had covid, they got so sick with erratic heart beats we had to call an ambulance and have them taken to the hospital. My wife left the hospital in a wheelchair and had to use it for several months. A cardiology test just this past month revealed permanent heart damage. My wife never recovered fully, and won’t.
So, as you can imagine, with that history another covid infection will create a lot of terror in us, and we won’t know how this story is going to go until it’s over.
With multiple covid infections in the house, Christmas day was spent in isolation. We had to cancel with our guest, and I cooked Christmas dinner alone. We ate alone.
No fun beautiful Instagram posts of Christmas for us. Just real life throwing another curveball.
Here’s the thing – and this is why I’m sharing this – this is what life looks like sometimes. Unpredictable, messy, scary, and sometimes completely out of our control.
I’ll hope for the best, of course, but I can’t deny the threat when we’ve already been through so much with covid. My wife does a lot of disability advocacy, and we’ve seen the disproportionate impact covid has had on the most vulnerable. So for us, it was never a thing to move on from. The threat remains, even if for most they can dismiss it.
Right now it feels like I’m in that space between the lightning and the thunder – that suspended moment where I’m caught in the middle of something and don’t know yet what’s about to happen. I’ve been here before. This is familiar territory.
I had big plans to start 2025 with a bang. And you know what? I still will. Just not in the way I originally scripted. Because that’s the real game – not executing perfect plans, but dancing with whatever life throws at you and making it work.
And I’m moved to share this because that’s life. And it’s not about controlling circumstances, but responding to them.
This is a story playing out in real time, and I don’t know yet what the whole story is. Watch this space.
